Monday, October 1, 2018

Bridget is Looking Fabulous...on the Inside

Little by little everything is coming together for Bridget my little rolling home. My washer/dryer combination unit and cabinet have been installed. 
My new cushions have been installed as well. I love them. It completely changes the look in here. I really don't do beige so I'm glad the old ones are gone. 
I absolutely love having a washer/dryer again. 

In a couple of days she goes to the dealer here in Portland for some maintenance. They are going to check the seal on all the seams, do a safety inspection on the appliances, adjust the entry door, add vent covers to the top and finally polish her. They'll have her for two days. 

Between appointments we have been staying in Troutdale, OR along the Sandy River. 
Mom! Take me with you!

We also had a brush up lesson with our dog trainer which has helped so much with Murphy's leash pulling and some other incredibly annoying things he's been doing. 
We'll be here for another 10 days or so and then we'll head southwest. I need some beach time and I have some family to meet.

Wednesday, September 19, 2018

Bridget is Getting an Upgrade

Sunday was moving day for Bridget, Murphy and me. We were on the road at 12:34 PM which is my absolute favorite time of day because it's so orderly. Yes, I know that's weird but hey, it's me.
Ultimate Airstream reception desk
We drove to Portland and arrived at Ultimate Airstreams just in time to be let into the parking lot so I could drop the trailer off. Then I went to my daughter's house where we are staying while the work is done. 
Monday morning I went back over to Ultimate Airstreams to finalize all the arrangements. I was there for quite a while. What a great business! They were very friendly and welcoming. I'm having a washer/dryer combination unit and a cabinet installed in the kitchen/living room area. 
This is what I'm having installed
I'm also having my upholstery redone. The stock cushions are not suitable for full-time living. The new cushions will be made with high density foam and better quality vinyl that won't stretch and is not slippery. 

My narrowed down swatch collection.
The big bonus in getting new cushions is I get to choose the color!
Pewter (left) and Granite (right)
Unfortunately my first choice of Pewter is out of stock so I decided on Granite with black stitching. 

Because I had to go back in and choose a different upholstery color today I got a chance to see the progress. The washer/dryer install will be finished on Friday. The new upholstery will be finished at the end of next week but I can just go in and get the cushions when they are finished. Two more days and I get my home back. 

Friday, August 31, 2018

August 2018 Update (not the most original title)

Tomorrow is September 1st and summer is winding down. So much has happened this month. I'm at the point where I need to start nailing down some plans for the winter. 
Bridget has her name badge on.

I've been slowly working on getting ready for the winter travel season this month. I went through the things I have stored here at my Brother's place. Rob and I never had anything stored while we were traveling but my Airstream is significantly smaller and there are things I just can't part with but I can't take them along either. Everything has been compacted into two huge totes. 

I also had a pull out cargo tray installed in the bed of my truck. This thing is awesome! No more climbing into the back of the truck to reach things. 

Just 5 days ago I went in for my second wrist surgery. They removed the hardware that was holding me together. I'm in a splint again for a few weeks but it's pretty small. I go in on the 12th to have the stitches removed. 
Hardware in...
Hardware out...
The 17th is the day I drop Bridget off at Ultimate Airstreams to have her new washer/dryer installed. That is exciting! I'll be staying with my daughter in Portland while they do the installation. After that I think I'm free to hit the road for a while. I'll need to be back for Christmas and the new baby. 
Murphy loves his snake.

Decisions, decisions....

Wednesday, August 1, 2018

A Beautiful Day on the Water with Family

How can it possibly be August 1st? Summer is flying by but lots of things have been happening. 
I was invited to go out on my brother's boat with he and his family. It's not a big boat but there's room for four. I struggle with my adventurous side sometimes so I really had to work at mentally preparing myself to go. I'm so glad I did though because we had a great day. 

We launched the boat near Potlatch State Park and away we went. 

The first order of business was to drop the crab pots and let them soak for a while. 

We boated around the bay for hours. 
The boys fished.

Someone quietly contemplated life. 

Suzanna and I enjoyed the sun, wind and an occasional spray of water to keep us cool. 

We had a picnic lunch on the boat and and then went to pull the crab pots. 
First pot!
This guy was a keeper but the second pot was empty. The boys put it back down to soak for a while longer.
Later when we pulled it up there were three more! Two were females and had to go back but the other one was a male and legal size so we took home two very tasty Dungeness crabs. 
Such a crabby crab!
Thanks to all three of you for strongly suggesting I come along.

I finally sold my first little Airstream to a really nice man who absolutely loves it. I have scheduled with Ultimate Airstreams in Portland to do some custom work on Bridget. I'm having a washer/dryer installed in mid September. That's exciting!

Surgery to remove the plate in my wrist has been scheduled for August 27th. I'm hoping that will be an easy recovery. I sure hope the incision is less gnarly this time. 

Still moving forward!

Wednesday, July 4, 2018

I Did It!!

Yesterday I got back from my first trip out with Bridget. My daughter had asked me to meet them at a campground in Oregon for a couple of nights. I wasn't going to go but with a lot of encouragement from family, friends and some of my Facebook groups I decided it was time. 

I had never hitched up a travel trailer and I have a weight distribution and sway control system which I had no idea how to hook-up. I knew my brother (Bruce) would be on this end to help and my son-in-law (Ryan) would be on the other end. I had a safety net so there would be no better time. Time to put on my  Bravelet and my big girl panties and go. 
My Bravelet

I spent a day getting prepared. I checked the fluid levels in the truck, checked the air in the tires, you know, the safety stuff. The day I left my brother came down to help and teach me how to get safely hitched and ready to tow. We hit some snags. There were parts missing that were necessary for the hitching system. It was a bit of a fiasco and took a lot of time.  Poor Bruce spent several hours trying to get me set-up properly.
Ready to go!

Eventually we got everything set-up properly and I was ready to go. I won't skip the part where I had a small melt-down just before pulling out of the driveway.  I pulled it together, glanced at my Bravelet and away I went. 
Just arrived at the campground!

The drive was good. I had a variety of roads to experience. There were highways, back roads, steep grades both up and down and some fairly narrow and tight turns. I stopped at a rest area about half way down to check all the connections. Better safe than sorry. I finally arrived around 5:30 PM. Ryan came to find me and guide me into the site. 

The kids loved the little sliding door and Murphy loves the kids.

We had a fun couple of days filled with campfires, s'mores, and snuggles and just like that it was time to go home. 

We added Oregon to the map on my door. Two down, forty-seven to go. 

I didn't have to unhitch when I arrived because the site was so long and I didn't need to drive anywhere so getting ready to go was easy. 

The drive home was good. I even had to stop and fill my fuel tank. Getting in and out of a gas station can be tricky but I did OK.  

I pulled into my cozy little spot at my brother and sister-in-law's house around 2:30. Bruce directed me so I could get on the blocks and get level. They helped me get unhitched and settled and then I realized just how exhausted Murphy and I were. I finished settling in and just plopped down on the couch for the rest of the evening. 

One down but so many more adventures to go!

Happy Independence Day!

Sunday, June 3, 2018

Spur of the Moment? Me?

I'm not a fly by the seat of my pants kind of girl. I'm a planner. I have to think things through.  So yesterday morning when my sister-in-law, Suzanna sent me a message asking if I wanted to go to the beach and collect shellfish the first thing that when through my mind was me trying to push one of those clam guns into the sand and whether I could actually do it.  My response was, "Um, boy that sounds like a lot of work."  

Then my brain kicked in with that line from a Darius Rucker song, When was the last time you did something for the first time. I responded with, "What the heck! I'll go."

On the way to the beach we stopped for my shellfish license. Gotta be legal! Then we headed to Potlatch State Park. Once at the beach we gathered our tools which did not include a clam gun thank goodness.  

Suzanna shows off her first find. 

What a perfect day!  Oyster shells littered the beach. Most of them were empty but if you looked a bit and turned some over you'd find a live one. 
This is a cluster of several oysters
In Washington State you have to shuck your oysters on the beach and the limit is 18 per person, per day. They are not easy to open but once you get the hang of it, it's doable. 
Shucking Success!
After oysters we started on clams. This type of clam is below the surface of the sand but not far. You rake away a few inches of sand, rocks and shucked oyster shells. The clams can be seen as you rake but you have to be careful to measure them so you don't take the undersized ones. 
We got our limit of clams and oysters then cleaned up and hobbled back to the car. After a stop for lunch we headed home to relax for a while. Such a fun day!

Murphy got his stitches out Friday. He's all healed up and ready to romp. 

I saw my orthopaedic surgeon on Thursday. He says my fracture has healed well but he still wants to take the plate out. They'll be calling to schedule surgery for early September. It should take about 6 weeks for the screw holes to fill in so I'll have to be careful. One more step in the journey!

Saturday, May 19, 2018

We Have Some Happy News

There's a new baby on the way! My daughter, Christina and her husband Ryan are expecting baby number four! Her due date is December 31st. 

Her other three children are 9 year old Camden, 4 year old Clementine, and 2 year old River. Since we lost Rob at Christmas time last year I think this will make the season a little bit brighter for us. My birthday is December 18th, we lost Rob on December 22nd, his 63rd birthday would have been on the 23rd and of course Christmas in just two days later. Perhaps the baby will come on one of those days?

This certainly changes my plans for the winter. I had just decided to head for Florida for the winter when she asked me what I'm doing in December. I've been there for all of their births and I'm not planning to miss this one so Florida will have to wait. 

On a much lower note, Murphy had an incident which required a visit to the veterinarian and some minor surgical repairs.  

We were out walking my brother's fenced property and Murphy chased an animal of some kind. Generally we see and he chases rabbits but this wasn't a rabbit. 

I believe it may have been a buck. We often see deer up on the hill behind the house and Murphy has matching puncture wounds on his inner thighs. 

The vet sedated him, cleaned the wounds and stitched them up. He has a total of 10 stitches. He's also sporting a lovely cone of shame. I'm supposed to keep him calm for two weeks. Seriously?

Lastly, Thank you! All of you have been so encouraging and kind in your comments. Some days I struggle and some days are pretty easy but I'm doing well. I guess I just want to feel normal again. Whatever that is.

Tuesday, May 15, 2018

Let's Talk About Fear

I'm stuck. 

I have my new home. My wonderful Airstream, Bridget. I have my tow vehicle (still unnamed). My trusty sidekick Murphy will go where I go and keep me company. But I have some crushing fears about starting over and going out on my own. 

Yes, I realize it's been almost five months since Rob passed away. I know that's not a long time in the grand scheme of things but I have to get out of this rut. 

This morning a friend posted this on Facebook.

Why can't I just move forward and live my life? What am I waiting for? Is fear stopping me? Why am I stuck in fear and not living my life?

Having lost Rob so young reminds me not to waste a minute. I feel like I'm wasting minutes... days... weeks.

To be fair, there has been a lot going on and I have legal, medical and other matters going on that can't be ignored. That doesn't mean I can't go on short trips here and there. 

The truth is, I'm scared. I'm scared to pull my new little trailer. I'm scared of damaging it or totaling it or hurting someone. This broken wrist has also amped up my fear level. This has been just awful and I have needed a ton of help from family and friends. I feel like I've gone from ultra-independent to dependent with one ugly slip and fall.

I'm also afraid I'll be bored or lonely. In truth I feel like I had been traveling alone for a long time because Rob was completely unable to help in any way and he slept a lot. I did it all and that's OK because I wanted him to enjoy the rest of his life. I wanted US to enjoy the rest of his life.

I reason with myself. I remind myself I drove the giant dually truck while pulling the 38' 5th wheel thousands of miles. I drove the 38' motorhome while pulling the car more than 18,000 miles. I backed them into campsites, I hooked up and unhooked by my self.

My reasonable self says just hook up and get moving and the fear will melt away with the miles. My fear is like trying to squish a spider. It keeps getting away and I can't seem to catch it.   

The 2018 International Airstream Rally is being held in Salem, Oregon this year in June. I was born in Salem and It's just a few hours away. I think I'll go. I may not take Bridget because it's late to get registered and space is hard to come by. But I'm going to check into my options today and see what's available. I'm hoping it will help me break the ice and get moving forward. 

Tuesday, April 24, 2018

The "W" Word

I'll never forget the first time I had to mark the Widow box on a form I was filling out. I was in Medford, Oregon standing at the counter in the urgent care center I had driven myself to after falling and breaking my wrist.

Yesterday marked four months since Rob passed away. So much has happened but things are starting to slow down now and I'm spending more time thinking and examining my feelings. I'd known it was coming for years but suddenly I'm a widow.
This picture just makes me happy.

People ask me how I am often. Emotionally I feel OK especially since the sun has started to shine more often. The thing is, I feel a little lost. Like I have no identity and no purpose. 
Doesn't everyone sleep with a pony in their mouth?

I also feel incredibly brain damaged. Is there an official diagnosis of Widow's Brain? I lose things all the time. I forget what I'm doing. I say inappropriate things at inappropriate times. To an extent I've done this all my life but it's worse now. 

Fortunately I'm able to laugh at myself most of the time. I lost my Kindle somewhere along this path and have never found it. I've replaced it now but I will always wonder what happened to it. Perhaps I threw it into the trash or a donation bag. I may never know.
Romping in Uncle Bruce and Aunt Suzanna's field.
I'm not writing this to complain or garner sympathy.  I'm just thinking "out-loud" about who and what I am and am not at this point in my life.

I'm not sure what to do with myself most of the time. There are things I think I'd like to do but I really don't seem to have any drive in a specific direction, no passion. I guess it's just too soon.
So many windows to look out in our new home.
After spending the last twenty years taking care of someone so important in my life to have him suddenly gone and not needing my help all the time I've been set adrift. I know it will take time to find myself and figure out how I want to spend my time.

I have lots of family nearby and I enjoy spending time with them. The thing is, I'm a single now and not part of a couple and things are so different when that happens. I had no idea.  
We planted a succulent pot yesterday.
I'm very independent and very stubborn and I know I'll be fine. I just need to find out what makes me tick now. I'm working on getting into a routine so I don't spend too much time sitting here watching TV or not showering until noon. 

With better weather comes more time outside and Murphy is loving that. We walk around the property every evening and he gets to have a good run. He's also starting to enjoy playing fetch (sometimes). 
Murphy's third birthday was yesterday. Can you believe it? 

I do plan to set out on a long trip in the fall. I haven't spent much time planning yet because I'm trying to be still and let things unfold. I'm going to have to have another surgery on my wrist before I head out because they want to remove the plate they used to stabilize the fractures. I'm not looking forward to that but I'm pleased with my recovery and my scar is looking better every day so I can't complain. 

Thanks for listening friends!